Blurry. That’s how it feels starting this blog all over again. The first one was deleted from 1&1’s servers because I lost my credit card and couldn’t pay and…well, the rest is history. *sigh*
It took me such a long time to finally get myself to do this. Felt like I lost what I had put so much effort into before. Angry that it’s all gone and I could not even remember what I had written because I’d typed it impetuously. Overwhelmed because I like things to be perfect and just the thought of doing this without planning annoyed me but the planning itself felt overwhelming too… Until this weird feeling came knocking; “why the hell am I torturing myself so much over something so small and inconsequential? It’s supposed to be a simple hobby after all”. Long story short, it was one of those “Aha!” moments of realisation that hits you smack in the face. The best part? It doesn’t even hurt. And that’s how Aha! turns to Hah!
Thank you beloved Corona for keeping me company right now. Say what you want, it helps.
I chose this photo which I shot in a small building in Berlin, which had some light installations on display. It was one of the coolest things I had seen. You all know Brandon Woelfel I imagine? Insta superstar with the dopest bokeh-filled photos. I felt like I just walked into his dream location. They were of all shapes and sizes, hanging from the ceiling, coming out of the walls like tree branches, popping out of the ground like colourful mushrooms. I was in love.
Needless to say that I wanted to get a photo with a bokeh-filled background, which is exactly what the above photo shows. I chose it because of that. Because out of all the blurriness, one thing stands out. A ball. A green f***ing ball 😂 If there’s one thing to know about me it’s that I have a dirty dirty mind (surprise!) and this is just the sort of thing that really gets me. Haha. Anyway, it reflects how I feel about starting this blog for the second time. So many thoughts, overthinking everything, taking it too seriously maybe…it was just a big blurry mess. The only thing I was certain of, was this; I want this blog. That’s my green f***ing ball 😂
Shot at f/1.8 to get that smooth blurry background, 1/320 sec because it was relatively bright (window lights and bulbs). I wanted a well exposed image. ISO 100 to avoid noise in the picture. Bam!
If you have had blurry moments, remember to stop, breathe, and look for your green ball!
Till next week!
R